Many of us want to start again---do it over---have another chance----here is what I have learned. To start again--1st you must tear down what is already there. Important life lesson that pertains to MANY parts of our lives.
I want a fresh start---a new beginning---but to accomplish that I am having to wade through what has been---keep what is important to who I am---but discard that which will not help me forge ahead. I started that process 18 months ago--I am now fine tuning it. It's not as gut wrenching as it was then--but it is sad. I am tearing down the life I have known here for 40 years--it has to be done--before I can start again and grow.
One of the things you learn as an athlete--that to move forward and gain strength---FIRST the muscle must be pushed to the point that it is torn down---THEN a MIRACLE---it grows and you become stronger!
SO--I am pushing to the point of tearing down--SO that I can become stronger and move forward---THAT IS A GOOD THING!