I have spent the weekend and today thinking over who I am and where I am with God. When I paint or am alone---I think---I listen to Christian music--I focus on God--and thus where I am in my relationship with Him. Perhaps I should become a full time painter---more time to spend on what is truly important. I have a deck and fence to seal and then a promise to paint #1 daughter's bedroom--who knows--it could become a full time career. It would not be all bad to only paint and think of Him.
While thinking, I began questioning again---does God want me to write? There are MANY really good bloggers out there---PLENTY of good words to help with your daily walk. There are so many talented artists of all kinds --musicians, singers, writers--there is no short supply in talent and the loss of one would not be a big deal. Does God desire me to write---or would I better serve Him in other areas?
Who am I to write to encourage--when my own failures are disappointing to even me. So I am examining my motivation---my source of inspiration--and asking, "What is your plan for me---what is Your will?"
Today I have no answer.