As we sat ---and rocked---in the deep stillness of the night---we agreed on every necessary step in giving and receiving forgiveness. We shared our journeys and what God was teaching us. As we peer through the lens of our personal pain, the reflection of the image of grace begins to draw into focus the beauty of what Jesus did for us. Our sin and man's sin against us teaches God's forgiveness and the absolute wonder of it all.
He shared the beautiful picture of admitting his sin, and acknowledging it to God and those who had been harmed naming his offense and asking their forgiveness. He then completed the necessary step of turning from that sin as God has instructed. He thought this final step of repentance should have freed him and allowed him to forget---but still the remembrance nagged him.
A trusted counselor shared with him--perhaps the final, but certainly a needed step--We must forgive ourselves. God forgives us and yet we are unable to forgive ourselves. As I posted that day, God is much more lenient with us than we are on ourselves. Turning this over and over in my thoughts, the question arose----If we do not forgive ourselves after God has forgiven us, are we discounting the grace Jesus lavished upon us? Are we denying the great price paid for us to walk in freedom? Are we saying--what He did was not enough? Another necessary step to complete the image of what forgiveness looks like.
DEEP PONDERING IN THE DEEP OF THE NIGHT-
"Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord,"