CHANGING MY COAT

If I am totally honest, I must admit this virus deal has occasionally put me into a tailspin.



It never occurred to me that I would EVER have to work at keeping busy.  When my volunteering imploded with the state shut down, I began to search for old and new activities to fill my days.  Somehow I have developed a pattern of 30 minute splurges into a variety of endeavors.  Perhaps I should apply to be the new ADHD spokesperson.  I will save the list of all the things I have attempted for another day.  This changed world we are living in has challenged me to maintain the positive spin while trying to pull out of a nose dive into the doldrums.



It has been amazing to see how God has provided each and every time the day has begun to darken into a dreary haze of repetition.  I laughingly tell others I am in a pattern of reliving Ground Hog Day over and over. The resulting primary pursuit has revolved around what I will be eating for my next meal.  With all the change, my appetite definitely has not suffered.  Or am I eating to fill the time?  I am not certain why-but I do know the tightening of my clothing is indicative of what I am spending part of my time pursuing.



The necessity of social isolation to stem the out of control spread of this deadly virus has been trying at best.  With the onset of our hot & steamy southern summer, the occasional visits outside or in the garage have had to be curtailed.  A feeling of heaviness of spirit or despair has occasionally settled around me like a thick and suffocating fog.  I am weighted down by the heavy coat of despair over all the suffering and trouble in the world and my loss of the means to help.






Just when I think I will not be able to pull out of the tailspin and I am headed for a huge crash, God sends me a Word or sign or nudge of encouragement.  A reminder that I am not in this alone.  Yes, the struggle is real and there is certainly a spirit of heaviness in the world today, but God is faithfully by my side.  Recently God reminded me of how to handle all the world is throwing my way.  He pointed these words directly at my heart~


BUT GOD!



4 comments

  1. Thank you for writing again and especially for sharing your feelings regarding this social isolation thing. It is hard to stay positive and hopeful. The scripture you shared helped me a lot.

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    1. That makes me smile. We are truly all in this together.
      Blessings

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  2. You have echoed exactly what I've been encountering in these uncertain days, Loralu. Yes, there are moments of depression and near despair, but God shows up to save the day. I truly don't know how I could even handle these times without Him.
    Blessings!

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  3. It's so good to see you again, friend! I hear exactly what you're saying. And yes, the weather either makes us feel a bit more free and alive ... or sends us tumbling into hibernation mode.

    Choosing praise, choosing connection has been a lifeline 'round these parts.

    Only Jesus hasn't changed. Only Him.

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Your comments keep my writing and often cause me to think. A written form of a hug or a pat on the back and an occasional slap into reality---I treasure them all!