I began thinking about the masks that I wear. I am working on taking those masks off and being the "Real Me", but it is a slow process after successfully wearing all these masks for a LONG time. I had a friend ask me last week, why I revealed so much about myself when I write--I told them it has not always been that way--but in reality--it is much easier to just be myself by being honest and living the truth than to keep putting on the masks.
I have a mask called "I'm Fine"---It appears when someone asks how I am. Perhaps I am everything, BUT fine---but there is this long ago lesson that you do not reveal too much about yourself-to ANYONE!
I have a mask called "I'm Happy"---Who wants a "Debbie Downer" as a friend? This mask has a permanent smile on it---no matter what the day has held.
I have a mask called "It's Alright"--while in truth things may be so far from alright that it is not even in sight. Who wants to hear what is wrong with your world?
I have a mask called "Righteous"-while the truth is that I am so far from righteous -except by His mercy-that I should be called "Wrongeous".
I have a mask called "Holy"-there is only one who is Holy---I am NOT Him!
I have a chest FULL of these masks---too many to list. So I have begun the quest to leave the masks off and be the person that I am---Broken and Fallen--yet joyful-because of His mercy that cleanses me and makes be Holy in His sight. Taking off the masks can be risky in the eyes of the world-but freeing in all truth. My attempt to hide behind my masks only fools this world----HE knows who I am and is not surprised or disappointed with the real me. I am who I am---and yet He loves me beyond my wildest dream!
Psalm 139: 1-4