We broached the subject of our disappointment with the church. It quickly became apparent to us our pointed fingers had turned all the way around and were aimed directly at our own breast. How easy to find fault--how easy to claim disenchantment with the Community of God we belong to.
I bitterly complained of my feeling of being invisible in the church. My disenfranchisement since the end of my marriage has grown to the point of temporary abandonment of attending at times. Whose problem is this---the church--are they missing the boat? Have they failed to reach out to me?
The question may well not be "Why has the church disappointed me?", but instead, "Who am I to be disappointed in the church?" Were my expectations of what the church should look like even Biblical? I am disappointed in my judgmental attitude toward the community God ordained for His body here on this earth.
I BE THE CHURCH! It is me--I am it--the buck stops here--I am to blame. The bottom line--I have the ability to fill in the gaps--bridge the disappointments--and create the community we all so desperately need. I need to get the plank out of my own eye--before I operate on the splinter in any other eye.
So here I am--it is a new year---indeed the slate is before me--the scroll is blank---I can fill in the pages--I can determine how this book will look---I need to look inward and leave the microscope I have been examining others with behind. Time for a little good old self analysis--and taking appropriate action in the quest to "Be The Church."
Lord, Forgive My Smug Judgment of others and remind me of my own sinful nature. Show me--how to be your body--here on this earth. Help me to forget the pain of the past and the disappointments of the present, but instead to look to the hope of the future, which only comes to fruition through You.
Behold, how good and how pleasant it is
For Brothers to dwell together in unity!