The little family is in the process of moving--AGAIN! I tend to forget how out of control I feel when moving until I am right back in the middle of it again. I have this delusional idea I am organized and on top of things and never miss a beat---AS IF! What boat did I get off of?
#1 Daughter has moved 9--count them-NINE times since 2001. I have moved 3 times in two years. I should be an expert--AND while I am good---there are some things you cannot control while moving.
Let's start with 4 children---6,4,2 and 3 months--and the baby has colic. There is a need for full time supervision of these 4 by 2 adults since the baby has to be held a great deal of the time. Couple that with Dr. Daddy who works shift work. The move begins to look like an ant pile that someone stepped in the middle of---everyone is going their separate way and no one seems to be accomplishing much.
Add to this scenario rain---not just rain but torrential downpours and thunderstorms and tornado warnings. After a long day of packing Monday, I came home to a neighbor waiting in the front yard to trim a large shrub and a cellar that was flooded in one of the gully washer rains that day. I started laughing and looked to the heavens with "Really God?" He must be having a great chuckle at my stumbling attempts to appear in control.
Oh--the move will get done--somehow. We are working on it and tomorrow is the big furniture move day. Did I mention the interior of the house is being painted WHILE they are moving in? OH YES--somehow in the midst of this confusion and chaos--order will be restored. Well- in all honesty--order is relevant when you have four children this age, but there will be an illusion of order.
Why would I be bothering to give you a detailed description of trying to control the chaos this week? It has me thinking about my quest to know God better--it can be quite chaotic. My quest becomes all about me--and not really much about Him. I am making a list--following the rules--serving others---attending church---and all the other self imposed attempts for me to find God. AND all along--He has been right here---right by me---I was so busy running around the ant hill--I lost sight of how truly easy it is to "Know God" by just being still and listening.
“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”