I can stand to sit still only so much and then I am like the proverbial jack in the box jumping up and launching off into yet another project. I definitely see a tendency toward ADHD when it comes to these projects. I begin by trimming a bush and see the weeds in the stone path need pulling and notice the dirt on the window by the path, which draws attention to the deck which needs sweeping, and this leads to the drive which is covered in squirrel thrown pecan hulls, which takes me to the front yard and a entire new pallet of jobs needing to be done. With a good book--I can sit for hours--but little else can keep me quiet and still-so I tend to keep at least one book or maybe three or four going at a time.
I have arranged my volunteering this school year to all fall on one day. The remaining six days need to be filled. I have been arranging flowers, cooking up a storm, cleaning out closets and drawers,--why I even broke down and cleaned the stove and refrigerator. All my pondering is done while in motion--not sitting on the porch swinging and staring off into the horizon. Annie Oakley said it so well-
Perhaps this comes from my childhood. My mother was a firm believer in children are seen and not heard. I sat for long stretches--perfectly still in a chair without saying a word. I did all my sitting in those years when I should have been out running instead of impressing the adults with my good behavior.
My dear friend advised me to "Rest and listen" while the lull is here. She told me it would not last---but am I resting and listening or am I busily running around avoiding the conversation? The first hurdle in having the conversation is determining how to snag the jumping bean.
Perhaps this is why I get the 2:00 AM wake up calls---my busy signal answers all the waking hour calls. Praying God will show me His path for this season---and that I can slow down enough to hear His message when presented. Though I find myself at peace--I truly desire to know the serenity of walking His path--even when it borders the raging river.
Those who love Your law have great peace, And nothing causes them to stumble. I hope for Your salvation, O LORD, And do Your commandments. My soul keeps Your testimonies, And I love them exceedingly.
Psalm 119: 165-167