It can prove to be a delicate guessing game to have enough funds to last until we leave this terrestrial ball for a better place.  My in laws saved their entire life for "The Big Illness".  In his 80's, my father in law had to have open heart surgery and my sweet mother in law was incapacitated with dementia.  I told Pappaw one day, during all of this, that the Big Illness he had saved for his entire life was here and it was time to spend some of that stash.  He was still reluctant--you never know what might lie down the road.

One of my long term client's step mother lived long into her 90's.  He took care of her finances and told me she ran out of money for all the expensive extensive end of life care the month she died.  He was greatly relieved she had enough funds to last her until that final curtain call.

I am at the point in life where this is a concern for me.  Though I have end of life plans in place, I do not have a crystal ball and so far God has not revealed how long I will be here.  I live a quiet non-extravagant life trying to ensure my needs will be taken care of by the savings I have.  I hope to be like the client's step mother and have just enough to make those final payments with no need to file bankruptcy.

This brought to mind a statement made to me by my sweet friend who is a therapist.  She told me that we give a piece of our heart to everyone we love.  I often quote this and reflect upon the validity of this.  I have a host of family and friends I love---and they each hold a piece of my heart.  There is still plenty of heart to go around to the new family and friends God Blesses me with.  It is risky to love and give away a piece of our heart.  It is gone forever once we allow another to claim a piece.  It is a risk I am willing to take.  I had rather die bankrupt of heart- with not one piece left than to stop taking the risk.  Something tells me if we hold on to our heart--it becomes hardened-calcified and is of little use to anyone.   The beauty of it all is with each piece we give away--God fills that void with His presence.  He will never allow us to become bankrupt of heart by loving others.  His presence provides an unending supply of love---for God Himself is Love.  Go ahead and give away all you want--His supply is endless and there is never a threat of bankruptcy of heart--when God is the fountain of endless love.

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love
I John 4:8


  1. Very thought-provoking ... and honest too. Thank you for this straight-talking post, Lulu.

    God bless.

    1. Where does this all come from Victor? I'm certain we know that source too!
      Blessings, My Friend!

  2. Oh boy...you have touched on a very tough subject...been there and done that (Bankruptcy, thanks to a illness that used all our savings). We were discussing a similar subject when my son spoke up,"We're not poor! We have each other. How many people have that?"

    You my friend, have some serious thought provoking posts...no surprise, is it? We have the same or similar topics here at home.

  3. You're right, Lulu ... we do live a risky life in many ways. Makes me grateful that He holds us in His hands, that nothing escapes His loving attention, and His beautiful provision.

    Now ... to live that out in practical ways that cause us to trust Him more and praise Him no matter what. And that can sometimes be a very challenging place to be.

    Thanks for this cause for pause this morning.


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