I must admit my bias against this subject from the very beginning~after all I am ALL grown up. I refuse to admit to being stuck on a turntable on endless repeat.
Today a friend commented on my busyness. It is difficult for me to sit still -UNLESS~ I am reading a book. "Ants in my pants" is a good description of trying to sit and chill. Most of my adult life I have had others comment on my constant state of motion. I had this nagging sense if anyone else close was working-whatever their motive--I should not have idle hands. I need to be up doing something also.
As our discussion progressed, she began talking about another friend who was never allowed to sleep late as a child or teen. C L A N G ~the bells went off. My mother worked on Saturdays and my dad had passed away in my early teen years. Before she left for work on Saturday mornings, we were all to be up and had our assigned tasks to keep us busy for the rest of the day. If she worked, we all worked. My older brother had a job in a grocery store on Saturday and left early in the morning. My younger brother and I were left with a list of jobs to be completed before she returned. NO sleeping for any of us---all hands were on deck---and there were no idle hands. The only approved activity while sitting was reading a book. WELL--what do you know--perhaps events in my childhood do still have a hold over me in my old age. WHO KNEW? God did, and with this one simple conversation, I was reminded of a behavior from childhood that has carried over all these years.
Without conscious effort to change, we are prone to repeat the lessons learned as children. Example is a powerful teaching tool and some lessons learned are not good lessons. The Word warns us of the sins of the father repeating generation after generation. With introspection, I have broken the hold of many of the sins of my parents. Hopefully, my children will not repeat my sin behaviors. The first step is always asking God to reveal the sinful behavior being repeated in our lives. Prepare yourself, if you ask with a willing heart, He will reveal what needs to be changed and it is not always pretty. Our willingness is the first step to redemption and moving closer to what He desires for us.
I am willing, but the child in me resists change---ONLY with His help will I be able to put away my childish behaviors and leave that brat within me behind.
The Lord is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, forgiving iniquity and transgression, but he will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children, to the third and the fourth generation.