I find myself heavy hearted many days in this season of life.  As I recently discussed with a friend a huge dilemma with their grand, I asked, "WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR GOLDEN YEARS???"  They told me, "No Coasting".  That is an understatement if I ever heard one.  Somehow I got it in my head that my years post full nest would be easy street.  So far that is not only NOT the case, but FAR from the case. Almost everyone I talk to has a boat load of concerns.


Life threatening and chronic illnesses are only the tip of the iceberg.  Those can absolutely be life consuming.  You meet yourself going and coming from doctors.  It takes a spread sheet to keep your meds straight.  It is painful---it is life altering---it is not for the faint of heart.  When I viewed the movie, "The Case for Heaven" my reaction was I am not afraid of dying, I just do not want to suffer in the process.  As many as I have watched leave this world, it should have dawned on me by now--suffering is usually a part of the process.  Only a handful of us die suddenly without any warning.

I have friends in my life who have dealt with unbelievable grief.  Grief can make you think you are going to drown in the depths of your sorrow.  Most griefs we never recover from, but we do learn to live with them.  I suppose it must come with the season of life I am in, but grief seems to abound all around.

I am thankful my life is semi-settled on most fronts, but when I look at the news I reel with what my fellow man is suffering and enduring.  War and all the atrocities it holds must be one of the most horrible things one can endure.  Living moment by moment not knowing if it may be your last, the knowledge you may be tortured, violated, or executed without cause must be mental torture in itself.  Your home is destroyed, there is no food, no heat, no way to get anywhere, to name a few and there is the hopelessness of feeling forgotten by the world.  There is only today --you loose the hope of tomorrow being a better day.

The woes go on and on.  I have listened to more heartbreak and witnessed more devastation than I ever dreamed this world held.  The "Golden Years" have turned into what seems to be the Ends of Time.  

I read one sentence today in our group study book which gives me the answer to my "Why's".

"He works in our hearts, in the hearts of others, and also in the events of our lives to point us in His direction."  You will notice it does not say He causes all the events of our lives, but He does work "in them."  I do not like what is happening to the world, I am distressed by the pain of my friends and fellow man, but I have NOT lost hope that God is present--even in the worst of times--

"The Lord your God is in your midst,

a Mighty One who will save;

He will rejoice over you with gladness;

He will quiet you by His love,

He will exult over you with loud singing."

Zephaniah 3:17


  1. I can so identify with your thoughts here today, Lulu. May we never forget that God is on this journey with us.


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