This morning's walk in the dark was filled with deep thought. This is being written before the time change and for the one reason that I will no longer be in the depths of darkness when out walking, I am glad for the change. I am not fearful---but I am concerned about falls when the sidewalks are sometimes filled with cracks and bumps and the deep shadows with the huge trees make it even more difficult to navigate. On to the reason for the post!
Have you ever stopped to consider how closely intertwined our emotions can be? We have talked before about the intenseness of love and hate. I personally feel the more intense our love for someone the more likely that one occurrence can turn that love to intense hate. Why would we hate anything we did not care about? AND if we care deeply---so we can be deeply disappointed and maybe even at least temporarily filled with intense dislike (hatred). As I have stated before, I truly hope to be at peace with this world in these final chapters.
Today I was thinking about disappointment. I am in a period of disappointment at the moment about a couple of things. This disappointment has been a nagging ache for a few months now. As I walked and once again tried to think of a way to solve the problems---I could not for the life of me think of anything new to try. Disappointment can crush your joy. I am in the state of keeping a finger in the hole in the dam as the cracks around the hole begin to slowly leak my joy. My head knows how much I have to be thankful for--how truly blessed I am, but my disappointment is whispering in my ear and telling me my efforts are all futile.
There is one salve which can soothe my soul---it is named hope. Can I manage to look past my disappointments and grab on to the glimmer of hope? Can the memory of disappointments of the past which were eventually either remedied or learned to live with give me the hope that this too shall pass? My head knows God is faithful---my head knows, but I am battling with the enemy who wants me to be downcast. I struggle---do we not all struggle? BUT I keep looking to the One who knows my struggle and understands its source.
"Humble yourselves, therefore,
under God's mighty hand,
that He may life you up in due time.
Cast all your anxiety on Him
because He cares for you."
I Peter 5:6-7
What an amazingly honest reflection here today, Lulu. Yes, we all go through disappointments in this life, but our hope is real because of our Lord. May we ever praise and thank Him for all His goodness and mercy. Blessings!
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ReplyDeleteYou perfectly described intense emotions. They can turn on a dime.
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