BRIDGE OVER TROUBLED WATER

There is a necessity for bridges in our lives. 
 I have always marveled at their beauty -
 but more importantly-
I gloried in their placement--
at all the right places along the path as I traveled. 
 The wonder of their construction
 and the perils that they might span
 and  what holds them up 
and who dared to build their often lofty paths
 always comes to mind as I peer over their sides.


The wonder of all wonders---
how would I have dared to get over the river,
 through the bog, or dared the swamp-
-or so many other perils- 
 if not for the bridge across their dangers?  
 The path would have stopped
 and I would have stood still
 had not someone seen the need
 and provided the way-
across the bleak snare to my forward walk.


Some bridges high and some very low-
-all with the purpose of connecting the dots -
providing a way to walk over the dangers
 that lie along the road.
 And wonder-more wonder what might be below
 those towering bastions of safety from danger?
 Perhaps a troll--perhaps a billy goat so gruff---
perhaps an entire city of dwellers could all live below.
  Enjoying the protection that the bridge affords 
to even those unseen to those on the path.



Swiftly running water---
still water but deep--
dizzying heights to the canyon floor--
there is always a reason -a time -
a season for the bridge to be built-
to provide the path for our trek through time.


Life is filled with bridges
 a necessary tool to continue the journey
 to the mountain top.  
The most beautiful and greatest of bridges
 I have seen was made
 from two simple beams that were shaped like a cross. 
 A bridge from the fallen to the glory of the heights---
placed at the most important of places--
from my heart to His throne -
a bridge for all ages.
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Today I am thankful for the joy
of knowing
of all the bridges 
built for all my stages
as I walk this path
He has placed before me.


"I am the way, 
the truth,
the life,
no one comes to the Father,
but through me."
John 14:6
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I AM A SEEKER

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Today I find joy in seeking Him.


IT'S ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU DO WITH IT----

There are days that time seems to be standing still---
As I march through the day to dayness-
 I seem to be on automatic pilot--
do it all today--just as yesterday--
and then again tomorrow. 
 A never ending spin on the wheel of life
 can become quite soothing. 
 The sameness can be comforting--
there is much to be said for the predictable.
  I could write a script--
stick to the lines--
move through the motions-
all in the peace of the repeat. 

Then the surprise of a change
 will catch me unaware and reeling. 
 Looking for the boredom of the usual-
in the midst of the strange,
 I am caught in the whirlpool 
that pulls me down into the depths.
  A grave disappointment, a huge mistake,
 a fall into the pit, 
or my ox is in the ditch--
no matter the cause-
I find myself shaken and searching.
 In the midst of the shock--
in the depths of dismay--
I need to remember the lesson--
I need to perservere
 and keep to the path--
as I reach for His grace and
 He leads the way. 


Life is filled with falls,
 bumps, bruises, breaks,
 losses, pain, despair--
when they come-
-remember the joy-
the good--the pure. 
 I would never know how glorious
 the run was down the hill -
-unless I first experienced 
the pain of the run up the hill.
  The grandeur of the mountain top
 only comes after the climb
 and struggle up the trail--
filled with rocks and boulders
 and fields of scree--
exhausting and dangerous
 to reach that crest-
but then the splendor
 of the beauty when finally at rest.



So for today, I remind myself---
in the midst of this different--
in the fields of the lonely--
there will be glory in the morrow---
joy instead of sorrow---
as I walk down the path
 and hold to His hand---
joy in the midst of the hope for tomorrow.


"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer."
Romans 12:12
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WHAT IS YOUR STATUS?

I had a sweet young friend contact me recently about the pain of being told she was single for insurance purposes.  It was a blunt slap to her face to find after marriage and a child borne from that union that the world now considers her single.  Her words, "My throat got a lump," resonated clear and true.  I well remember the first time I had to answer "Divorced" when asked the question of my martial status.  You could have taken a dagger and plunged it into my heart and it would have been less painful.  It is one thing to know it in your head--it is a totally different thing to speak it out loud.

We ALL seem to depend upon our status in this world filled with status seekers. When we loose part of our status--through whatever means--we have to go back to square one and try to figure out just whom we are again.  After years of being a couple, you are forced to live with the amputation of what once made you whole-another person.  The division of the body of two-leaves one with holes in your identity and the altered status of how the world looks at you.  

 There is a caste systems among status---and single seems to be the lower in the world filled with joints.  Look around you and see how even the business world puts added burdens on single.  The tax code and social security laws are written to reward those that are joint.  Take a trip---the rooms are booked double occupancy.  Go and eat alone and see where they seat you.  Insurance rates are higher if you are single.  The list goes on and on. 


Tax rateSingle filersMarried filing jointly or qualifying widow/widowerMarried filing separatelyHead of household
10%Up to $8,700Up to $17,400Up to $8,700Up to $12,400
15%$8,701 - $35,350$17,401 - $70,700$8,701- $35,350$12,401 - $47,350
25%$35,351 - $85,650$70,701 - $142,700$35,351 - $71,350$47,351 - $122,300
28%$85,651 - $178,650$142,701 - $217,450$71,351 - $108,725$122,301 - $198,050
33%$178,651 - $388,350$217,451 - $388,350$108,726 - $194,175$198,051 - $388,350
35%$388,351 or more$388,351 or more$194,176 or more$388,351 or more

I am re-reading a WONDERFUL book--an allegory--Hinds Feet On High Places--that I read years ago.  I am so thankful that a friend reminded me of it and caused me to search it out---after reading the forward I KNEW that God was using her to point the book out to me.  It is a beautiful lyrical tale of "Much Afraid" who is from the Valley of Humiliation and a member of the Family of Fearings.  Told in similar fashion as the genius of C.S. Lewis and John Bunyon-Hannah Hurnard weaves a beautiful tale that reminded me of my true status:


I am not single-
I am HIS Beloved.

As I finished One Thousand Gifts recently, I marveled at Ann Voskamp's description of the sweetness of the intimacy of spiritual flesh to spiritual flesh.  There could be nothing more sensual.

Today I count it as joy to be called "His Beloved"

"How delightful is your love, my sister, my bride!"
Song of Songs 4:10



KNEE HUGS

I desire-enjoy-relish---a really good hug.  One of the things I have noticed about the Big City--they are not overly HUGGY people.  I asked Camille had she noticed this and her reply was that she had not thought about it until I brought it up--but yes she had found the same thing.  Perhaps it is "Stranger Danger"--or perhaps an abundance of caution since Heaven knows we never understand where others are coming from.  I am learning to accept it and do a great deal of hand shaking. 

I manage to get some hugs though---when I visit the grands.  Elliot ALWAYS comes running with arms open-a huge smile on his face and yelling YUYU! as he hugs my knees.  I LOVE a knee hug---I can not get down fast enough for him to grab my neck---so he grabs what he can reach--my knees.  He is a sweetie!  Henry is a different story---he is "Too Cool For School" at 4!  I can get a hug--but it has to be his idea and in his perfect time--that is OK--I will take what I can get.  POOR Collin---he gets wrapped up in hugs & kisses without the ability to protest--except for the squirm to get down.

We all have an inborn desire for community and in my world--I have a need for touch.  I miss all the warm hugs I would get/give on a daily basis in R.  God created us with this desire to touch and be touched--but we cannot physically touch Him---Interesting.

What I have learned is that the warmth of His very presence can wrap me in better than a hug.  Knowing beyond ANY question that he is with me---feeling His closeness wrapping me in His very essence---Love.


Today I am thankful for the joy of hugs!


"You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore."

LONG LIVE THE QUEEN!

I began working with my little student recently.  She is SO PRECIOUS--but I also may have my hands full---That is alright--I have had them full before!  Little Miss is very tiny--and really pretty---and she knows it!  She informed me that she had two siblings--both considerably older than she--as in almost grown.  She followed that by telling me that she really loved princesses and that she WAS in fact a princess.  I told her that was great--but to NOT FORGET that 


I AM THE QUEEN!


We needed to get it straight from the get-go WHO is in charge!  She then asked me, "What did you bring me?"  I laughed and told her I brought her "The Queen" and the queen would be there EVERY week to spend time with her "The Princess".  She THEN told me specifically just what she wanted me to bring her.  Bold AND beautiful-sounds like a soap-I told her to take that up with Santa---because I was not Santa nor the Good Fairy---BUT I was her friend and there to work with just her.

We all seem to have a sense of entitlement when it comes to life.  We KNOW what we expect life to look like and are not really too happy when it does not resemble what WE have in mind.  We after all have THE PERFECT Plan and know exactly how things should go and how life should look.

When we pray--we ask God for specifics---we want a bear---and not just a bear--but a pink Bear, God.  That is what you are there for---right God?  To answer my every want, need and desire---and in the manner I deem and in my perfect timing.  Child-like prayers become our petitions. 

SO GLAD that He just laughs at my silliness and vain attempt at being in control!  Where would I be had if I had the reins---I do not even want to think about it.  SO--I may be the queen BUT HE is the KING---and I am filled with joy today knowing that He reigns supreme in my life---and supplies my needs--NOT my wants!

"But the Lord is the true God, He is the living God, and an everlasting king"
Jeremiah 10:10


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OH MY--GOT MY HEAD DOWN

What is that old song'

"If it weren't for bad luck--I'd have no luck at all"?

I have always heard that bad luck or troubles come in three's--as I posted earlier I was fortunate enough to become the latest victim of the Bubonic Plague---my SO SWEET daughter accused me of being dramatic--WHATEVER!

Next my computer dies---and I mean crashed to the depths of the cyberspace cemetery for the dearly departed of techno life.  I called my sweet brother--who informed me that my impatience had led to this early demise--but then gave me some advice.  SIDE NOTE--Why must brothers ALWAYS remind you of your stupidity before coming to your rescue?---JUST SAYING--  I find a reputable computer man via I phone (another blog on trying to goggle on a screen the size of my palm.  He comes out and sadly shakes his head---"It's really bad!" I will spare you the LONG details--but new hard drive---all is lost at the moment including work on 3 books---one that I had actually started writing-the other 2 outlines and brain-storming.  PERHAPS same brother might be able to recover something???  I am mailing him the hard drive in hopes that he might cause a miracle--I will even take the stupidity lecture again if he does.

SO--if the old saying is right--I have my head down--waiting for the incoming!  TWO DOWN- ONE TO GO!

THEN I took a DEEP breath---reminded myself that FAR FAR worse things have happened.  AND THEN began to look for the bright side--EVEN if all is lost---perhaps God has something even better for me to write!  I also know it is all up in my head--it's just finding the side railing where it is parked that is the problem.

I DO NOT believe in luck---I DO believe in God.  I do not believe in co-incidences---I DO believe in God-incidences.  Everything--Everything happens for a purpose and at the right and proper time.  SO I am back up and running-I may have lost some files--but perhaps they needed losing and I am back pecking away---LOOKING FOR THE JOY!  Today there is JOY in the acceptance of what life is--here in Fort Worth Texas with a new hard drive under my fingertips!  ALWAYS-ALWAYS--COUNT IT ALL AS JOY!


"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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