We settled into a better routine after that week and I even felt like we were making progress. Still some drama, still some silliness, but we always managed to finish the work in the time allotted.
And then this week---the week of the all important STARR testing here in Texas and-
Not My Child
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Her sobs were whispers of desperation as huge crocodile tears rolled down her cheeks. She was inconsolable and whispered, "I hate myself". All this followed angry words from her mother and the painful words, "You are going to fail again!" Last year she had not passed the test and been held back and this year--I do not see a promise of success.
Her mother is homeless---pregnant--no job---desperate---and in the midst of all this desperation---her child seems doomed to failure. All this mother could think about was her child repeating her own past mistakes. I explained her mother still loved her, but we all want the best for our children, but she was not buying it. Those words spoken in frustration and anger were forever etched upon this child's heart.
I wanted to yell in frustration as well at both the child and her mother---"YOU HAVE HAD A YEAR---YOU KNEW THIS WAS COMING---YOU CHOSE TO NOT PREPARE--AND NOW YOU CRY!" It breaks my heart that this child--unless her path is changed at the ripe old age of 10 already senses her doom to failure. She has lost hope---and as we spoke recently--without hope we have nothing.
My gentle answer to her, "Look at me and listen----the sun will still come up tomorrow, and you still have plenty of time to turn this around--if you choose." I explained at this point--she could only do her best on tomorrow's test, but she could turn all this around by changing her attitude and working hard from this point forward.
How many of us get to the point of the night before the test and cry in desperation and frustration because we have not prepared? We all face tests and trials in life---the outcome is based upon our preparation. We can hate ourselves for not being ready, or we can know we have done the work to be prepared. When life becomes hard---really hard---we can fall back on those hours of preparation and survive. Continue on the path---even when the going is tough because we know---we have learned---who we can count on---who is by our side--who is faithful. And no matter how tough the test---we will continue to hope---because we are prepared.
In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ;
I Peter 1:6-7