A POINT IN TIME-

I have spent a great deal of time today thinking about just what a date means.  When you view eternity from God's perspective---it is not even a grain of sand on the beach.  To us it is a way to measure time---to pause and remember a special occurrence in our lives---some good and some not.  The date causes emotions to rise to the surface---sometimes happy and sometimes sad.  

Really though a date is just that---a point in time to measure time.  The number of years we have been on this earth or the number of years when someone departed this earth.  The date rolls around---we pause--we reflect--and the next day--life goes on.  God created morning and night---to give us these markers--since we are mortal beings while on the earth and need a method to measure.  

Everyone has special dates that they always pause--reflect---remember.  No one is created unique--it happens to each and every one of us.  At the very minimum you have the day you were born---to keep track of your time here.

Today--40 years ago---I was married---and that was a point of time in my life--not really special to anyone else but me.  I pause today--I reflect-I count the number of years and tomorrow life will go on.  It's a point in time on the continuum of eternity--just a point in time.

COWTOWN REPEAT

I am headed back to my soon to be new home tomorrow.  Henry's "Maid Servant" as he has named me will be back for his beck and call.  Henry was a good choice for a name----His first name should have been King.  I take it as a personal challenge to pull him back down to Earth!

I am in the running for "Mother of the Year"--this should just about put me over the top!  For some reason the "Little Mother" is exhausted---couldn't have anything to do with the fact of getting NO sleep!  Between a baby that eats every 2-3 hours and a 3 year old that will not go to bed and wanders around in the middle of the night---she's feeling slightly over-whelmed!  NOT to worry---Lulu is on her way!

COME TO FORT WORTH AND WE WILL GO FOR A SURREY RIDE!

LONG time friend, Sonny, posted this on my timeline.  It seems that in downtown Fort Worth they have this new form of entertainment.  A pub on wheels!  WHO came up with that idea!

This could lead to a REALLY interesting post!  Since I am NOT known for my co-ordination----just think about it---enjoying refreshments from the pub---cycling with my legs--and trying to carry on a conversation while touring downtown Fort Worth.  I should charge admission!  HOPEFULLY someone else will be steering!

TO BUILD IT AGAIN--FIRST YOU MUST TEAR IT DOWN

Many of us want to start again---do it over---have another chance----here is what I have learned.  To start again--1st you must tear down what is already there.  Important life lesson that pertains to MANY parts of our lives.

I want a fresh start---a new beginning---but to accomplish that I am having to wade through what has been---keep what is important to who I am---but discard that which will not help me forge ahead.  I started that process 18 months ago--I am now fine tuning it.  It's not as gut wrenching as it was then--but it is sad.  I am tearing down the life I have known here for 40 years--it has to be done--before I can start again and grow. 

One of the things you learn as an athlete--that to move forward and gain strength---FIRST the muscle must be pushed to the point that it is torn down---THEN a MIRACLE---it grows and you become stronger!

SO--I am pushing to the point of tearing down--SO that I can become stronger and move forward---THAT IS A GOOD THING!

BE CAREFUL WHEN YOU ASK ME A QUESTION!

Be VERY careful asking me any questions or opinions at this point---I seem to have acquired a new found freedom of saying JUST what I think!  I noticed it last week when at a couple of meetings---a question is asked---I open my mouth and OUT POURS what EVER I am thinking.  There seems to be some freedom in knowing that I am moving---There are those that might tell you I have always experienced this freedom and told most just what I thought.  NOT TRUE---I carefully measure my words almost all the time---never wanting to ruffle feathers or hurt feelings.  I would NEVER hurt your feelings on purpose--BUT if you want my opinion---be ready for the response--WHO KNOWS if my guard will be up or down!

I trust you will not track me down in the Big City to give me an earful!

DICHOTOMY OF EMOTIONS!

I am using a very critical eye going through my "things" and deciding take-or leave.  Almost everything has some memory attached to it---but also I have to be practical and remember I will have limited space and it is expensive to transport things.  SO--I am down-sizing again.  18 months ago I had a MAJOR down size---this is not so over-whelming!

  
I keep reminding myself---it's things---things are not important---relationships are important.  That is true--but often there is a sweet memory attached to those "things" and it is difficult to let them go.  I have to remember that I am the only one that has that memory--and anyone else seeing the object--would just see a "thing" not a memory.


SO--I am doing a good job of letting go.  MY KIDS OWE ME BIG TIME!!!!  Having gone through the process of sorting through a life time of "things" for my mother and in-laws---I assure you THEY OWE ME!  I have saved them LOTS of labor and discarding.  YOU ARE VERY WELCOME!

SPEED DIAL

Camille told me about E's 2 year old melt down recently.  I believe it was nice having my extra set of hands there while I was helping after Collin was born. E was having a normal 2 year old dramatic melt down---tears--on the floor---the world is ending screams.  He kept telling her---Baby to Henry (Give the baby to Henry-the 3 1/2 year old) Picke Up (Pick me up) while she is in the middle of feeding C---You have only 2 hands.

I told her when I move, they can call me when there is a crisis (although I will  be 10-15 minutes away and said fit could be over before I can get there).  She said, "Yes , I am buying the buys a phone and putting one number on it---YOURS and teaching them to speed dial.

SO I guess I will be #1 on the speed dial in someones phone finally!